Thanksgiving 2010

The Thanksgiving blog. Thanksgiving kinda snuck up on me this year, not so much that I didn't know what the day on the calendar said, but I wasn't feeling very thankful. I had put my focus on my situation and my own selfishness and "sufferings".  Being thankful is a choice. You have to choice to see the blessing right before your eyes. Not only do we have to see them but also choose to feel grateful. I must confess that I haven't been very good at it lately.
It took a bad experience to see what I have before me. I needed to see how bitterness was creeping into my heart and changing how I was dealing with everyday life. It's hard for me to admit it. But in a moment of humility, my perspective changed. Thank you Jesus for humbling me once again. Thank you for the conviction of the Holy Spirit. Thank you God the Father for sacrificing your only Son to take my place on the cross.
Just in the nick of time I see what I have to feel grateful for. Thank You Sweet Jesus!
Happy Thanksgiving.

Late night

I am sitting here at the computer as I do most nights now. Travis is at work and the kids are sleeping soundly. It's probably mostly out of boredom, but tonight it is loneliness. So in my melancholy mood I decided to blog. Maybe not the best idea...
Today was a hard day. I saw someone from my past that I probably hadn't seen in twenty years. I asked  a direct question and I was totally ignored. I haven't changed that much. And we were at church, so I would have thought that the fact that our lives have changed so much for the good, it could have been something to rejoice over! So I guess that it hurt my ego a little.
I pulled into Target yesterday, and got the worst cussing I have ever received. And it was totally some chick, pulling through into a parking spot that I was going into, she was lucky she didn't get creamed! It is still bothering me.
There is a lot stuff going on with friends right now that weighs down my heart. Sickness, busyness, drug addiction, bad relationships, strained family relations... it seems to be all around. I suppose it always is. There is never an end to our prayer list. But I think sometimes it is closer to us than other times. I don't feel like I have anyone to talk to. BINGO The root of it all.

But tomorrow is a new day and a new school day. The Lord's mercies are new every morning. I pray that tomorrow will bring a day filled with the Lord's grace, blessing and HEALING for all the friends and family that I love.